Truth Beneath the Rose


Give me strength to face the truth
The doubt within my soul
No longer I can justify
The bloodshed in his name

Is it a sin to seek the truth, the truth beneath the rose?
Pray with me so I will find the gate to Heaven’s door
I believed it would justify the means
It had a hold over me

Blinded to see
The cruelty of the beast
Here is the darkest side of me
(Forgive me my sins)

The veil of my dreams
Deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
(Forgive me my sins)

Pray for me ’cause I have lost my faith in holy wars
Is paradise denied to me because I can take no more?

Has darkness taken over me
Consumed my mortal soul?
All my virtues sacrificed
Can Heaven be so cruel?

I believed it would justify the means
It had a hold over me
(Forgive me my sins)

Blinded to see
The cruelty of the beast
Here is the darkest side of me
(Forgive me my sins)

The veil of my dreams
Deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
(Forgive me my sins)

I’m hoping, I’m praying
I won’t get lost between two worlds
For all I’ve seen,
The truth lies in between

Give me the strength to face the wrong that I have done
Now that I know
The darkest side of me

How can blood be your salvation
And justify the pain
That we have caused throughout the times

Will I learn what’s truly sacred
Will I redeem my soul
Will truth set me free

(Forgive me my sins)

Blinded to see
The cruelty of the beast
Here is the darkest side of me
(Forgive me my sins)

The veil of my dreams
Deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
(Forgive me my sins)

—Within Temptation (watch/listen to it here)

I heard this song for the first time a few months ago. It immediately resonated with me, and it really seems to capture some of the struggles I’ve had in the last couple of years. Most of the beliefs and teachings I was raised with, I no longer hold to. I feel bitterly disallusioned, cheated, but also afraid. While I don’t believe they are true, a little voice keeps saying “what if?” The speaker in this song seems to have the same fear – she knows what she used to be, used to believe, is wrong and has hurt many people, but she doesn’t know what’s right or how to make her wrongs right.

There’s quite a bit of chatter on the internet about what the song actually means, or what it’s writer intended for it to mean. I’m not sure that matters so much as interpretation of the song to each person. In fact, I would guess that is why the writer didn’t make a big public to do over the meaning of the song (couldn’t find it in a casual search of the internet, just lots of speculation) – so that each person that hears it could relate to it. I certainly did. It sounds to me like it’s referring to the Crusades undertaken by the organized church in the Middle Ages, and the singer has realized that these “holy wars” aren’t really saving anyone, they’re actually hurting thousands of people.

It’s that thought I relate to so strongly – I’ve seen modern day holy wars, not undertaken with guns and swords but with manipulation, deceit, and suppression. The results are just as bloody, and perhaps even more dangerous because the victims for the most part, look fine on the outside. Those that become uncomfortable with or question these modern day holy war tactics are guilted and threatened into silence and submission.

Is it a sin to seek the truth, the truth beneath the rose?

Maybe that is a bit angsty. Oh well. I love that song.

Oh, and just for the record, while Sharon den Adel usually has amazing dresses/costumes in their music videos, she seriously needs to lose the black feathered wrist bands. Ugh.

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2 thoughts on “Truth Beneath the Rose

  1. If it is angsty, it’s because there was more than a little angst in your life up until a certain point. I understand it perfectly. 🙂

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